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Dear Editors,
I hope you will
find space for this article. It was submitted to Inquirer's
Youngblood but it turned out that they only accept pieces from
20-somethings, which I am not anymore. Baka sakaling makadagdag-larawan
laluna sa mga nag-stereotype na sa parent activists at sa 'kapalaran' ng
kanilang mga anak. Thanks! - Luna Soler
Happiness
By Luna Soler
In
the morning of my thirtieth year, as I sat in front of my working table
with my toddler still asleep in my arms, I read a tearjerking birthday
note from my husband. That day and the next, he handed me portraits of me
and our son. He’s always full of simple, silent surprises that never
fail to overwhelm me -- like this one. I said to myself: with him,
our little one and everything and everyone that has to do with our chosen
lifepath, I cannot be happier elsewhere.
I
felt an urge to write about this happiness especially after reading a
piece that implied “inuuna ng parent-activists ang bayan” at
the expense of their children .
It
was in the beautiful and colorful lifepath of struggle where I met my
husband. My colleagues and I went to the the countryside (others, to
factories and urban-poor communities) after finishing (some toward the end
of) college and couldn't turn our backs at what we saw -- stark poverty
and how the equally hardworking farmers and the New People's Army worked
together to face it, study about it, solve it no matter how painstakingly
long it takes. The exhausting treks, constant mobility, and various
other hardships were easily offset by the warm accommodation of the
barriofolk, lively discussions with them on various topics -- from current
events to economic projects to the familial and personal, activities we
work on hand-in-hand -- from simple house chores and cultural gatherings
to landtilling and other livelihood concerns. It was no temporary
operation but an integration of minds, hearts and limbs that has blossomed
and continues to bloom through time. The goal is to unite as many
Filipinos as possible, starting from the peasants, workers and
professionals who comprise majority of the population, in waging primarily
the armed struggle to overhaul the stinking system. A concrete path
leading to a bright future.
Looking
at how the government fiercely wrought violence against hapless civilians,
from simple harassment to mental and physical torture and summary
execution, as more and more people are standing up against the status quo
and seeking genuine alternatives, it was clear that the struggle was
not an option but a necessity. No wonder the people support and
cheer the victories of NPA offensives and punitive operations against the
armed forces, despotic almighties and incorrigible criminals. Many young
men and women we came by eagerly wished to and then eventually did join us
when they came of age.
My
decision had me dropping my plans to teach in a university. I lost the
person with whom I thought I shared my dreams and will spend the rest of
my days. My husband and I feel that those who raised us -- whom we do love
very much -- also feel somewhat affected that we didn't choose to live a
‘normal (perhaps unpersecuted and relatively comfortable in many senses
of the word)’ life. Considering this does make me anxious at times --
but I am strengthened by my unwavering kabiyak, and am humbled and
inspired to go on whenever I remember the thousands who have
sacrificed their lives in this course.
The
self-criticizing movement, which advances as it learns and draws strength
from the people's plight, is teaching and enriching us plenty. We strive
to live simply (which is not all that hard because the job has no
renumeration), and devote ourselves to our contribution to the pursuance
of the struggle. A deep sense of camaraderie and unity is continuously
forged among comrades. An undying optimism burns among the people with
whom the movement weaves and celebrates changes borne out of the constant
but long-term struggle for what is right and just. This arms us in the attempt
to never tire of explaining the revolution to the people – including our
kin and friends -- in every way we can. They extend their support or
themselves get involved in various forms. Hope thus springs eternal
despite the constant threats imposed by the status quo.
Living
a dangerous life never became an issue until our little one was born to
us. The state's by-hook-or-by-crook persecution of the movement limits the
time that we can spend with our child. Thus, raising our baby to be a
happy, healthy, loving, discerning and responsible individual is a
challenge. But with the same optimism, taking inspiration from the many
parent-activists (like my parents) who raised their children to be what
their children wanted to become (not a few opted to join the struggle as
well), and with our relatives' and friends' support that has even
strengthened our resolve through the years, our confidence about it
outshines the otherwise inevitable worries.
Through
the years, we’ve learned that caring for our offspring and serving the
people go very much together and are not contradictory as others may –
or may wish to -- think. To experience I charge the sad growing-up stories
(some of which I, too, have ) of children of parent-activists. As far as I
can remember, despite the crying episodes, I’ve always referred to my
parents as the best in the world (and their comrades, the kindest and most
intelligent pack of titos and titas – aside from our kin of course).
Before it was because of the way they and the ones to whom they entrusted
me made me feel their love -- no matter the periods of separation. Now it
is also because of the two dictums they taught me that have inspired me
through -- ‘serve the people’ and ‘everything in its own sweet
time’. They themselves remind us to learn from the ups and downs we went
through while growing up so we can be good parents to our child.
None
of them may be perfect, but I have not met a single parent in this
lifepath who didn’t wish the best for their kids. My parents may not
have been able to give me so many toys and other material stuff as I grew
up, but they sure taught and shared with me this happiness - that which is
in simple things; in the natural beauty of this earth; in the intrinsic
goodness of humanity; in sharing these with our kin and friends.
Happiness
is also in opening one’s eyes to the realities of life; in determining
what needs to be done not only to face it but to change it if
necessary; and in doing it no matter how difficult it may be.
Knowing
that we are not alone in this quest, we hope to be able to raise our child
to be a happy one, too. The looks of it are promising, if my husband and I
may say so. Posted by Bulatlat
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