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Below is Aya’s letter to her missing father.
Dear Tatay,
Kamusta?
A few days ago I had a dream about you. I knew you were here because I can almost smell you. We were talking casually when, out of nowhere, I asked, “Are you still alive?”
“No,” you said.
My heart was suddenly stabbed. You said something else that I couldn’t comprehend because I was stuck at the word “No.” Then you hugged me like I had never been hugged my whole life. I hugged you back and I cried. Hard.
Then I was awaken by my own sobs.
Were you telling me that I should start accepting that you are gone? Was that a goodbye hug? It pains me to think so. But four years of searching for you is quite an obvious sign that you will never come home. Today is the fourth year of your disappearance, Tatay. There was never a day that I didn’t miss you nor thought of you.
‘Tay, in those four years, you taught me so much. You taught me to continue this struggle even with the heavy heart of missing you. You taught me to use this anguish and turn it into a fuel in seeking for justice. And even without you, you taught me that your principles are worth fighting and even dying for. You brought me out of my comfort zone and into the frontlines to confront the perpetrators of injustice and repression in our country. You may not be here but my search had brought me closer to you and the cause that you carried.
Isn’t it ironic that the fourth year of your disappearance is also the time for the renewal of formal peace talks between the National Democratic Front of the Philippines and the Government of the Republic of the Philippines, which you had also worked for? If only the peace talks could surface you and all other missing victims.
Forgive me for not being able to find you yet. Even with the change of administration, disappearances still continue, desaparecidos like you are still missing, and perpetrators are still walking free. You are right when you said that it is not the change of administration that will bring significant change in the society but the other way around.
Today, in your fourth year of disappearance, as much as I wanted so bad to forget that you’ve been missing this long, I stand with your photo in front of the institution that abducted you, the Armed Forces of the Philippines, to call for your surfacing and for other victims of enforced disappearances. Together with other families of desaparecidos we will continue to fight against this heinous crime and against a repressive state.
Your disappearance has led me to find more of myself.
It has also led me to continue what you strived for. Nanay and Kuya are still here, of course, but also, I stand along many others like me, whose loved ones were disappeared by state security forces. I stand with the Filipino masses who continue to seek justice and genuine social changes, to which you and the other desaparecidos had committed your lives.
Thank you for teaching me to find courage in all this; if you did not, I would have driven myself crazy not knowing what to do. Thank you for bringing me closer to the people whom you served for they give me comfort and strength to continue the struggle.
Tay, my heart still hopes that you are still alive and will be able to read this. I am still waiting for your return.
I miss you so much!
Your loving daughter,
Aya
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March 8th, 2011 at 4:50 pm
Just like you, my family is also a victim of human rights violations. I am a martial law baby. My father died 35 years ago. By the way, I am now 35 years old. I never got to see him or had the chance to love him. He never had the chance to care and to love me. My mom was pregnant when he was shot by the military force. My elder sister is 1 year old that time. I emphatize with you but I don’t pity you because I know you are a strong young lady – I bet your parents taught you that way. I could say you are more lucky than I am because your were able to be with your dad for quite sometime. I am writing to tell you that there are people who support your stand and I am one of them. Keep on fighting, Don’t give up! Mabuhay ka!
December 18th, 2011 at 10:14 pm
Mabuhay ka and all those who are still in search for their missing friends and family. As well as those who fear of becoming missing and getting killed just because they dare to have their call for justice and equality be heard.